HOW WRITING MY FIRST BOOK DESTROYED PEOPLE PLEASING AND EMPOWERED MY GLOW UP by Tamara Rasheed

In 2009, I wasn't prepared for all the fear and worry that popped up when I sat down to write my first book.

Fear shifts when you start writing your book.

You're not afraid to protect yourself and play small anymore. 

You're feeling the fear, the uncertainty, of stepping into your brightest light. 

If you're a new author, you might feel that fear and worry coming, so you have been avoiding being committed to writing.

It's scary to relive what you've gone through when it's just for the sake of remembering.

And if you've already started this journey, you're probably feeling like you're just crawling toward the finish line and have no energy for what might come next. Going through all of that is so draining.

But let me tell you why you need to jump into it even though you're afraid. 

And why you need to keep pushing when you're almost finished.

As I got started, I realized my fear was coming from the past traumas I had experienced and healed from.

I was getting triggered remembering those events and reliving the past - when that wasn't the point of writing this book. 

And that wasn't the point of going through all the things I went through either - just to be afraid.

Writing this first book actually inspired me to write more about my story, and I got the courage to write my best-selling book Breaking Free while facing those fears. 

I realized if I really wanted to make an impact, I was going to have to use what I had been through differently.

I was going to have to make things better with the same things I thought tore me down when I thought I was at my smallest in life.

I couldn't do that while hiding from it, and writing my book brought it all into perspective.

I was scared to say too much and tried to stick to the information I wanted to share only, but the book was cold and didn't really reflect what I wanted to share.

It needs you and your life to really make a difference.

I couldn't write more than 75 pages if I didn't want to include how my life was actually impacted or without really opening up my life.

Writing this book made me realize that I had dimmed my light my whole life. 

I didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings by sharing my accomplishments or being my authentic self - and that was the trauma talking, not my future. 

Fear shifts when you start writing your book.

You're not afraid to protect yourself and play small anymore. 

You're feeling the fear, the uncertainty, of stepping into your brightest light. 

It's the fear that reaches out to the most courageous and brightest shining parts about who you are so that you start living fully.

You see, you're not becoming someone better than you were.

You're stepping into the awesomeness you already are. 

I hope this helps. 

This Picture is an Image of a Functional System (MUST READ) by Charles Awuzie

My Transhuman Coin Smart Watch alerted me of an elevated Blood Pressure. It was around 9pm and we were inside the Bush for a bush dinner.

This happened last week in Sun City. I soon started feeling chest pain and felt dizzy. I phoned my hosts and asked to get back to the hotel with my co-speakers.

Getting to the hotel, the pain got worse so I got my people to get me an ambulance. In 3 minutes, 2 paramedics from the hotel arrived. 9 minutes later, a fully equipped ambulance arrived. 

They offered me Aspirin because they thought I was having a heart attack. I declined and informed them that my anti-coagulant protects me better than an Aspirin. One of the paramedics recognised me and asked "are you Charles Awuzie?". I nodded in the affirmative. She said she follows me on social media and told her colleagues that I have good knowledge of my Biology. She saved me from explaining my history and also allowed pictures because she knows I'm doing a documentary of my life and health.

By the way, I need to pause here to remind some of you that I do not post updates like this because I need "herbal solutions" or your prophet's phone number. I post these updates as a TRANSHUMANIST to explain the condition and future of our human biology and how Science and distributed wealth can prolong human lives.

Back to my story, when I got to the hospital, I was given medications that calmed my raging system and I slept off. I woke up in the morning, got Uber back to the hotel, got ready for my presentation on "How Religion Impedes Science in Africa". The next day, we drove back to Johannesburg and I haven't rested. I've been on the road, travelling for business. I'm back to hospital tomorrow for my routine check up. Thanks to good medical insurance.

Unfortunately, if I was in Nigeria, I would be dead by now. 

This post was inspired by Nigerian Journalist, David Hundeyin's story of how his 63 year old dad died in Lagos while waiting for an ambulance which had run out of petrol. The ambulance arrived 2 hours later.

His story reminded me of Footballer, Sam Okwaraji who died on the soccer field playing for Nigeria. The ambulance was delayed and he died. 

A friend lost his wife in Lagos traffic. And many more of such sad stories abound.

Last year, I suffered a PE and SCA - what saved me wasn't prophets or their religious prayers, what saved me was the PROMPT RESPONSE OF A FULLY EQUIPPED AMBULANCE - and yes, some funds to take care of myself.

And if I die tomorrow, it wasn't god or witches that killed me, it would be a poor medical decision, error or accident. The power of life and death is not just in our tongue according to the Christian bible, it's also in our hands as a people ruled by governments and affected by economies.

I'll continue to share pictures like this to motivate Nigerians to rethink politics, religion and life in general.     There's no witchcraft worse than a mixture of poverty and a dysfunctional healthcare system.

Shall we continue like this? 

This picture is an image of a functional system, it's not a picture of a sick body. 

Big thanks to my Transhuman Coin Smart watch which alerts me of any body change and to a responsive healthcare system.

My name is #CharlesAwuzie and I want the best healthcare system for All Africans despite financial status or political affiliation.

Maranatha.